Remembrance of things past

I always liked the idea that BC was 5 years older than I. It was one of the things that attracted me to him when we first met. He hit his decades first and it always seemed to pave the way for me. I was excited about my thirties and forties because I had experienced them already when he turned those ages. As he got older the age difference occasionally bothered him. And I have to admit if provoked I whipped out the age difference and clobbered him with it. Many an argument ended with the phrase "Maybe so, but I will always be 5 years younger than you ... always."

This was supposed to be a seminal year. BC would have turned 60. He hated the idea and of course I loved it. I really started kidding him about his age once he turned 50. I would tell him I couldn't wait to turn 55. The inference was he would be 60.

As his birthday approached this August I thought about it a lot. We had talked about it many times. I wondered how we would have celebrated it if he had lived. I'm sure I would have done something really special for him. Then something happened that I thought would never happen.

August 8th came and went and I forget it completely.

I remember thinking about it on the 5th or 6th. Then the next thing I know it was the 13th. 5 days later I finally remembered. I have no idea what it means. I think it's odd but I haven't questioned it too much. When I told Dark about it he just hugged me tight and said it was ok. He felt BC wouldn't mind.

And that's when I decided that was my gift to BC - no acknowledgement what so ever. I think he would have liked that. As much as he hated the thought of turning 60 he probably got a kick that I forgot. So that's your gift, BC. And something tells me you'll get a bigger kick now that I will turn 60 before you.